not HARD yet: 2nd March 2010 - MY 45th.........

Its my birthday again...first I would like to thank Allah for giving me such a wonderful life. No word can describe how thankful I am for giving me the joy of life ... another year with such a colourful journey it has been for me. Everyone have their story to tell, their burden and their sorrow, the ups and downs and so do I. But still here I am, still smiling and still hoping that life will be much better in the future, InsyAllah.

Next, I would like to say 'thank you' to all kind people who have sent messages of good will and warm wishes.....From families to friends, new and old..all the person who holds dear to my heart. All of you are the colours of my life who share my joy and pain whether you realised it or not..truth be told, you are all the pillars of my life and for that again my greatest gratitude for being there for me through thick and thin.

Last year, I posted something about my 44th birthday here. I always believed, every cloud has a silver lining...every misery will be blessed with happiness forthcoming...the starting of year 2010 has not been great for me..when things seems to be OK, it stumbled in front of me...taking everything in a blink of an eye... so fast and so furious...no amendments... By going to Bali alone has started a new beginning in my life...the resurrection ..the clarity of what need to be done and thus, I made a vow at the highest cliff in Uluwatu, saying goodbye to what seems to be the bittersweet memories of that certain past.

Now I am smiling again...

Not like this...But I believe him when he said "Your are not properly dress if you face did not wear a smile"..

more to ...like this.

Last but not least, I would like to thank a very special person.. thank you for being here....we are two lost lonely person in the world and we met at the weirdest time of our life...only to realise how special thing can be if we believe in it... Thanks for making my heart smile again and surely making yours too... time will tell, no promise no guarantee no certainty.... but slowly and surely...the beginning of our journey.....